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Wednesday, May 27, 2009
A huge relief!
Everything has been solved already I guessed..
With the end of physics test today and the holidays coming, I can finally take a one day break I guess!
lol..
though physics was a screwed up I must say..
but well, I'm gonna sleep now!!!
tata!
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4:25 PM
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Monday, May 25, 2009
Been trying to conceal my sadness the whole day today..
guess I've succeeded..
But I know for a fact that I can't hide it in me at all..
Been trying to do all sorts of things to forget about it..
BUT
I just can't...
Never once had I felt this way before..
Never once had I felt that I had no idea what to do...
that I'm at a loss..
It just kept coming into my mind..
But there's nothing I can do..
And when I'm alone,
that's the real challenge..
I seriously don't understand what those freaks were thinking..
what is their freaking problem?
why can't they just mind their own business?
I never expected such a thing to happen to me..
And as I know even more,
the worry just accumulates and increase...
HAIZ..
Seriously no mood to study at all...
but I know that I've got A levels and tests to study for..
All I can do now is to do well for my As..
And I really hope the problem can be solved asap...
if not,
I will really dread going home
I will really dread having to hide my emotions and be happy when I'm super sad deep within..
I will really be filled with hatred...
I will really dread walking home, because my feet seemed so heavy..
How I wish someone can be here to tell me what to do..
It's a huge crisis I guess :(
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7:23 PM
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Sunday, May 24, 2009
Seriously been 3 weeks since I've blogged..
Hmm..
Getting stressed up over studies..
Didn't really have time to use com with the piling homework and my parents using the com.
I think it's getting really crazy..
2 more months to prelims, 5more months to As,
but we still have quite a number of tutorials to clear..
though I've cleared most..
But Just can't seem to find time to really start revision..
My revision has been quite slow I guess
Esp, when I have somebody who reports to me the progress of others..
It's even more demoralising sometimes..
And whats worse,
If I felt that I didn't do enough work,
I won't be able to sleep with that guilty feeling in me...
Results ain't any good either other than chem and maths..
maybe not maths..
Been screwing up for tests..
haiz..
I must make a breakthrough for common tests for all my subjects then I will get some comfort at least I guess?
And apart from studies, there's something else weighed on my mind after I heard what my dad had said. This is seriously worrying.But what can I do?
Anyway,
Talenttime was alright.
Was contemplating whether to go since I felt that it was a waste of time and I felt like studying instead.
But well, went in the end. The winner was really the nanhua dance group, as expected. Chee Yew got slapped real hard. And the people sitting behind were super noisy and irritating. LOL. But the most interesting thing was, xinyi lost control when she saw somebody. Damn funny. She walked past him and literally screamed. LOL. I was laughing when she kept saying that she felt damn hot....
Anyway, think Im going to do work...
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10:59 AM
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Sunday, May 03, 2009
Uploading the chalet photos on facebook now..
So I'm like rooted to the seat in front of my com..
Got home at 4plus this morning from studying with 12-year friend at Bukit Batok MACS. Before that, watched "Friday The 13th". A super gory show. And quite porn also.The guys beside me were like laughing at the sex scenes. LOL. But the show's not bad overall.
It was a super bad idea to study at Bukit Batok MACS yesterday man..
so many people were like overnight,
and many adults were talking super loudly
damn difficult to study..
so cabbed home at 4plus, don't know why, the stressful feeling came..
tossed and turned and I can't sleep at all as I started counting down to the number of days I'm left with to A levels.
I'm super worried for physics and GP..
seriously..
feel SUPER unprepared for them..
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1:46 PM
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Friday, May 01, 2009
It's been a SUPER DUPER LONG TIME SINCE I BLOGGED!!!
Almost ONE MONTH I think...
No time to blog, given the number of tests we have each week, and apart from that, having class CIPs to do, and tons of homework when the teachers are teaching SUPER fast and not understanding anything, plus, going out to study, and the extra time I have, I'll be sleeping. LOL.
Anyway, quite a happening month for me I must say..
Firstly, Nanoscience.
A super fun IDP.
Although we only had it for 3 weeks, but had loads of fun with especially Francis and Girish. They literally go to the lab to crap, and not forgetting benny bai fong calvin jin xing and chau lung. they made nanoscience something for me to look forward to every friday man.
Then there was the CSL recruitment drive. Mainly participated in the CSL orientatoin camp. Had fun with my partner Bai Fong Girish. Made loads of friends too. LOL. But was quite unhappy about some stuffs which only some people will know..LOL...
And there was the class CIP of course. The first time I went, yy and xinyi couldn't take it and left early, and jeremy and bai fong were made to do the cleaning of the place. The kids were real rowdy man. And after that, we did colouring.The 2nd time I went, the 4 guys were made to do gardening. LOL. And I heard that they threw soil at Wei Zhen.Which was so much more fun than what I did. I was like colouring for the whole 3 hours. LOL.
Then it was Jacon's birthday celebration at Saffra Chalet.
But before that, sleepover at Si Hui's house to do Jacon's present..
Was super tired on that friday..but no choice, had to finish his present cause the chalet was just the next day! So we stayed up and did the pasting of the photos till like 5plus, till I couldn't take it, I went to sleep and went home at 6plus, cos I have to go school that saturday morning!
But the chalet wasnt too bad. Had a great time catching up with everyone. And all the crap. We were like talking about how Fairfield had changed, and obviously all the crap that had happened in our secondary school days, all the fun we had. LOL.Really missed it man.We never seem to get sick of talking about the same stuffs man. Really hope our friendship can last forever, and we'll still be able to talk about the same lame stuffs that had happened.
Then GB 72nd Enrolment.
The weather was super hot! Really amazed that two years had passed by so fast, and now I'm into the year where I'm gonna take my A levels! Wan Xian reminded me of myself as the GOH commander 2 years ago. And of course, I'm proud to announce that SQUAD 2 HAS BROKE SQUAD 5'S 3RD YEAR OF GETTING BEST SQUAD AWARD! hahahaha! WOOHOO! Well Done girls!!! And Had loads of fun catching up with my juniors and the seniors. Super fun man..
And KBOX with Jin Xing Xin Yi and Bai Fong at SunTec. Had loads of crap and fun singing and eating with them.
And finally, Talenttime audition. Loads of super weird and funny stuffs happening. There was a vibrator, a prostitute and another with funny pronounciation.And Bai Fong was super funny too.He said that his name was "SONG" bai fong. And he was super funny lah. Was super nervous when it was my turn. Was like shaking if I wasn't wrong. Saw myself shaking. Wanted to laugh when I saw Max. And that morning, I was being made to go home cause my temperature remained at 37.6 for the whole hour, so I was being sent home. Contemplated super long before deciding whether I should go back for the audition. Should have stayed home lah. Didn't even get in AGAIN. kind of sian about that. but heck care lah.I didn't really want to join anyway.
And of course, full of tests the whole month. Was quite upset about some results, and almost cried yesterday, but thanks to HIM, who made my day, I felt so much better. I don't want my sec 4 days to be back. Many people will not understand how that feeling is like. Really. I never want those days back.. And PW was quite disappointing though I'm quite happy with a B. Shan't say anymore about it.
Been quite upset the past few weeks though. Guess I'm really stressed up for As, seeing how well the people around me are doing. I have my own expectations, adding on my parents' expectations. HAIZ. I'm really grateful for friends who had been there for me.:)
I must really buck up man..I cannot sleep anymore! I know I can do it!!! :)
And of course, PICTURES UP SOON!!!
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6:56 PM
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